A plateau is a high form of flattery (sleepwithlovely) wrote,
A plateau is a high form of flattery
sleepwithlovely

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it would be much easier

I don't know what is wrong with me or what causes this, but performing doesnt seem to release negative energy from me. Granted, I had a great time, but afterwards I always get all depressive. I remember after the 764-HERO show I sat outside at Einstein's trying not to cry until the little girl came up and asked me for my autograph. Tonight while I mingled for awhile, I sat outside on the corner shivering, but at least shivering was not being frightened, paranoid, or moody. I think I get performance anxiety or something. I was so scared tonight, and we did O.K.

Except, I really hate this scene. I mean it, I was beginning to actually have fun here and then some little high school punk-ass jerks decided to tag my car [with snack cakes, no less - how fucking lame?] with "bitch", "i hate you", and "die." I have a damned good idea of who it is, and if I ever find any hardcore evidence that it was you, I know of about fifteen people that are ready to kick your ass. However, Urch was really nice and actually cheered me up talking to her. And Conner said he was very impressed and that we sounded like early Sleater-Kinney [and I got even more comments on how I sound like Corrin Tucker, minus the crazy vibrato]. I think we have a show booked in March with a band called the Reputation, and Avec are playing here Friday [they're ex Sandwich Is people] plus in March is also the Helio Sequence and Magic Magicians [764-Hero + Black Heart Procession]. Rock.

I also got to hang out with schwarzbrille, bioproject, Steve, Megan FM, Kennedy, Aaron, Sebastian, Tim, and some other cool kids, so the evening wasn't a total loss. And I now have a really rad signed Bangs poster [and they were brilliant].

I've also re-added the anonymous posting. I really just need to stop giving a shit about this scene, because for 90% of it doesn't give a shit about me. Trust me, just telling me who you are won't make me hate you any more than I already do.

Tomorrow, I'll post pictures. Now, I have to do schoolwork.

xoxo
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You guys did better than OK, you and Luis both sounded really great, and Marcus, too (esp. since he'd been playing w/you for such a short time). I assume it's a lot harder for you to say you're doing good 'cause I know I'm, at least, really self-critical about the things I care about, but even Eric liked your stuff, and frankly, the boy don't like anything. Out of the four bands, excepting the Bangs, your music sounded most like this man's idea of good rock 'n' roll.

Scene kids suck. That's why I was never a scenester, that's why I never will be a scenester, I just say go on, turn the other cheek, and don't give a shit about their stanktitude 'cause they shouldn't deserve the satisfaction of hurting your feelings.

Good luck with school work (and wish me the same 'cause I've still got a story to read) and good nite.

(P.S. We really do need to hang out)
tomb stones, sky scraping
rock stars, double dating
if you're going to hate me, well go on hating
for this moment in your life for this moment you be waiting

~The Moldy Peaches.

my new motto.

xoxo

(P.S. Damn you... call me!)
nice...can I smell a cover in the works

(P.S. I'll call you tomorrow, maybe, I've got some mad laundering to do tonite, pray for me...)
please do. tuesday/thursday i get out at 2, and i only have one class.

and i'll probably be up at J&B all tomorrow night...you're welcome to come w/.

xoxo
you rock, you opened up for hte bangs..will you marry me. Oh wait :)
that's right sistah, and don't you forget it.

besides, you're my lucky number 9.

...or something.

sorry, that was the worst music reference ever created, but it was all out of love for my wifey!

xoxo
yay! i love hte moldy peaches..once upon a time i had a conversation with kimya dawson..she was cute. i'm going ot MAKE her come here and play!
dude...kimya dawson has a diaryland somewhere, i found it randomly once. i dont remember how. and yea, kimya dawson is hot. ^_^

xoxo
yea, i've read her diary...she has the cutest hair ever!